Pieces

I remember when...
I was your best friend,
the fixer of all problems,
the one with all the answers
Your “go-to”
to calm the storms.

I was somebody,
respected and loved,
Not belittled and criticized.
But, now it seems
I don’t know anything.
I have no relevance and
If I ask anything
I’m only thinking of my needs.
Self-centered
Pitiful
Needy

I’m not allowed
to have emotions or feelings.
All those things
that made me your defender
when the world did you wrong...
now seem to be considered
negative traits and bitterness.

How did I go
from the top of my field
to someone who is useless
and knows nothing?
Someone to be mocked,
devalued?

It hurts to know
that you are not respected.
It hurts more
when it comes from one
who you would do anything for.

So when I seem more cold,
less open with you;
please know
it was forced upon me.
I didn’t ask to feel this way.
I learned it from having
to put my heart back together
after having it shattered
in a million pieces.